Am I Atheist ?

Well , this question seems very odd for others and from few days to me also. I was in full confidence that being an atheist is a good in this rouge gone Communal World. But as i started to scratch deep in various spritual details i must say it left me at a state where i can see myself as Agnostic more than the Atheist , what i used to think about my self.

As we know there are two major doctrines of the world and found the following:

• Both contain blatant internal contradictions.
• Both contain concepts that are blatantly against proven science.
• Both contain concepts on issues of human rights, gender rights and morality that can put any sensible      person to shame.

In addition, both have a same common theme running across:

• Once upon a time, God thought of creating universe and humans from nowhere. (What caused God to do this one time exercise when he has been existing since infinity and will exist till infinity, is beyond these superstitious texts!)

• Then God sent some Adam and some Eve (whom he made from rib of Eve) who used to roam around naked. Once they ate some fruit of a tree where they were stationed by God. This petty act irritated God so much that He chose to curse Adam/ Eve and his progeny forever with pain and grief.

• God created some Satan also who would trouble other creations of God.

• God has pre-decided fate of everyone born and everyone yet to be born.

• God sends his divine knowledge through some book on some persons. Those who believe in that book and person blindly alone, will go to a Paradise. Rest will burn in Hell forever.

• Different sects claim a different set of divine book(s) and their prophets. There is no way to decide conclusively which set is true. But if you make a mistake, you are doomed to Hell forever.

• To add to complexity, God decided to not provide any mechanism for conservation of the divine book. Perhaps because modern storage methods were not yet devised when these books were launched, and hence God too was ignorant! But still if you make a mistake, Hell is waiting! There are countless Bibles, and Quran was compiled 20 years after death of its Prophet by those who were fighting for each others’ lives. In fact Quran was not even called Quran till its compilation, and the earliest available Quran is 300 years later to its Prophet’s death.

• The only supporting evidences to justify authenticity of a divine book are miracles that have been performed by the magicians called Prophets who broadcasted the contents of the book. Now there is no way to deduce if the miracle actually happened, but unless you choose to believe in the right book and right Prophet from among so many bidding for faith of humans, you are destined to burn in Hell!

• There will be another miracle when world ends. God will then have a court-proceeding along with his chosen Prophet to decide whom to send to Hell and whom to Heaven. God does not know that right now and has to do a drama.

In summary, blind belief in a particular book and stories associated with the book, along with its broadcasting Prophet is the only way for escaping Hell. What more the God as per these books is

- whimsical

- inconsistent

- deliberately confuses people

- has already decided who shall go to Hell and who shall go to Heaven even       before people take birth,

- has created a Satan to add to confusion of people

- tests some people for decades and sends others to Heaven directly from         womb

- at times himself acts like a Satan to trouble people and make them ignorant

- chooses such people as Prophets who are murderers, rapists, pedophiles,      preach hatred, self-obsessed and psychopaths. Some Prophets have                 symptoms exactly of Temporal Lobe Epilsepy

- and most importantly, has prewritten fate of everyone. Thus free-will is         simply an illusion of free-will

This is the case with all the dominant religious ideologies and associated scriptures of the world.

Under such a situation, it makes more sense for someone with a mind that can think, to be an Atheist than believe in such a book and such a God, among many in the market.

Thus typically those who believe in one of these blind faiths belong to one or more of following categories:

1. They were born in a family or society following a particular faith.
2. They came to read book(s) of their family faith, saw the junk, got irritated and hence opted for a different faith in the market. For example, I bought a Motorola mobile, it crashed one day and hence I decided to never use Motorola and choose Nokia instead!
3. They want to feel important and know that if they change faith, they will get greater importance in new society of blind-followers
4. They want to be liberal in relations with opposite/same gender and marriages.
5. They know that they would have to face grave harm from society if they turn apostates.
6. They have limited intelligence, or are too emotional and thus got swayed by marketing hype and social hatred/preference.

But for a rational person, who is also brave, atheism seems to be the only option in a world where people do not have any reason to believe what they believe in. Thus Atheism is a natural reaction mechanism to hoax of a religion that has no logical foundation and is based merely on blindness of minds. Atheism is thus the next step of evolution of intellect from tendency for blind belief and believing without reason.

The above holds true not only for Islam and Christianity, but also for majority of Hindus comprising Sanatanis, Jains, Buddhists, Sikhs and so many other big and small cults and sects. Thus we see many Muslims being Muslims because they hate Christians and Hindus. And many fanatic Hindus call themselves as proud Hindus primarily because Islam has been a barbaric nuisance in this subcontinent and largest factory of terrorism production since its inception (competed closely by Christianity in its early phase).

And then we have an entire cult of Secularists who deliberately or unknowingly refuse to explore and merely shout that all religions are equal merely because all have some good elements and all have more or less fraud elements as well. These secular businessmen who tend to benefit from the religious confusion in the society like the jackals of the jungle, only add to the prevailing confusion.

Thus, we see a society where emotions run high, people tend to follow what they are used to, or rebel abruptly, tend to mix social and religious beliefs, have given up any element of logic to support their belief systems and have no reason to explain why I am a Hindu, Muslim, Christian, Jew or Secular! Thus a more sensible person turns Atheist. A more evolved thinker goes a step ahead and becomes Agnostic – I don’t know! May be God exists, may be not. Who cares! And Why?

Though i consider myself as Atheist but yet there are few facts which i analyzed and compell me to think that really i am Atheist or Agnostic , or even worse " not any one of them".

They are as follows:

• Despite the hype created by false texts, the fact remans that I exist. And I cannot be a chemical reaction or inanimate entity. If that be so, how could I demonstrate the characteristics of happiness, sorrow, attraction, repulsion, efforts, intellect. I agree that different parts of brain enable these functions. But who is the source? Who is the driver of the car? Who, even after a deep sleep, wakes to say that I slept peacefully? Who feels the peace? Who gets the urge to be me? Who feel the ‘I”? If it were a purely physio chemical world, only inanimate objects would have existed and there would not have been ‘You’, ‘Me’, ‘He’ or ‘She’ debating this very topic! Now presence of ‘I’ cannot be denied. The very act of denial proves that an “I’ exists that is denying!

• Further, there is no cause for this ‘I’ to get destroyed. Since ‘I’ is not a physical entity, ‘I’ cannot be worn off or damaged by other physical entities. Apart from the change in association of ‘I’ with other physical entities like body, nothing can change in ‘I’. ‘I’ don’t need a proof to know that ‘I’ exists!

• Now if ‘I’ is imperishable, how come rest of the physical entities work together in unison to create appropriate environment for ‘I’ to exist, enjoy, act and think? ‘I’ know that ‘I’ did nothing to manage it. Yet I know a grand conspiracy is constantly at work to suit my requirements of survival with physical world and enjoy the same. Thus I get a body whose wonderful mechanism is not yet understood, a brain about which we know nothing much except that there is nothing more mysterious than it, the food I eat, the society I live in, the earth, the solar system, the universe ….

‘I’ know ‘I’ did not manage all these complexities. ‘I’ know that inanimate particles and waves cannot create a corporate body and allocate responsibilities to make all this happen like in a factory. So there is some other entity who is managing it all. Now this entity has to be living/animate like me or else it cannot manage innumerable ‘I’s like me. And this amount of introspection, suddenly destroys the very foundation of Atheism. In fact few can say it challenges Agnostic to admit that you are Agnostic only because your intellect has a limited capacity today. I don't know.........

So I know clearly that three entities exist right now – ‘I’, inanimate particles/energy, and the manager of it all.Thus all leading scientists have refused to be Atheist and have admitted that a manager  has to exist.

What we call as law of nature is nothing except something being repeated in most perfect manner without deviations. For example, Yajurveda says that “Ishwar has held every entity and moves them perfectly as per unchangeable laws.” Because He does so with perfection, we call it to be a law. Let us take example of Law of Gravitation. Two objects at a distance tend to attract towards each other as per a defined formula. Now if there is no entity managing the whole show, what caused the objects to get attracted? Scientists call it Fundamental Law because they cannot answer it further.

We cannot explain why would certain physical entities suddenly start having a feeling of ‘I’. We cannot even explain which particular physical entity is feeling this ‘I’. For example, scientists are baffled on whether there is a specific seat of consciousness in human brain, or many neurons together form ‘consciousness’. If yes,then how and why? And why does that consciousness repels against death and its destruction? Why that consciousness seeks peace and wants to avoid frustrations and grief?

We also don’t know how we can answer it except admitting existence of another entity apart from their own jungle of neurons in their respective brains!

What more, I find that my thoughts control my destiny to large extent. By molding my thoughts and resolving for anything, automatically I get surrounded by situations and people that help me move towards my resolve. There is an art through which all the inanimate and animate entities of the world seem to working as per my thought processes. If I tend to be negative, negative events happen with me and negative people surround me. If I tend to be enthusiastic, I get more enthusing opportunities. Recently a bestseller book “The Secret” was written on this principle. (This is nothing but first step of foundations of Vedas and Yog).

‘I’ know I exist, and unless there is an entity managing all this for me, ‘I’ know that nothing at all will make any sense!

Well i don't know how vague i am in above lines or what you will understand about the damn thing i wrote here, as i am also still much confused on many points. But hope some of you get a good idea about some points what i discussed and gve some clue on them.......